I went grocery shopping Friday afternoon with every intention of picking up a week’s supply of Slim Fast and getting started on my new plan on Saturday.
Then I looked at the ingredients.
It has high fructose corn syrup, which I expected and was actually OK with the idea of having it daily for just a couple weeks. I try to avoid it, but at least it’s pretty much just corn and I can live with that. But I read a little further and found hydrogenated oil. Trans fats. Dr. Oz has done his job and scared me straight off ever ingesting even the tiniest bit of that, so I scrapped the Slim Fast plan and compromised with myself.
The bottom line is, even though it works, I’m tired of counting. Points, calories, all of it. I just want to live for a while. But I also still want to lose some weight and definitely don’t want to gain any.
The plan I came up with is based on some things I’ve noted about myself, one of which being that boredom and mindless activities make me feel hungry. Insatiably hungry. And even though I choose healthy foods and I measure them out and am careful about how much I ingest (I’m not really a binger at all), I still end up eating too much under those circumstances. Add to that weeks where I eat out more often or am invited to parties and it’s a recipe for disaster. That’s as much because I’m denying myself too much as that the food is just right there in front of me.
I do have my treats daily, but I’m so concerned with getting in enough fruits and vegetables and enough healthy oil and enough of this thing or that thing and I end up going a little too crazy when I let myself have something different. And I exercise too much. I get burned out. Then I go weeks without doing much of anything. Another recipe for disaster.
My compromise is to not beat myself up for not getting all the required nutritional foods every single day. I eat enough fruits and vegetables most days that if I have a day where I come up short (or have none at all), it’s not going to harm me. I need to come to terms with that. So, I’m going to focus on keeping my mind busy so I don’t have the boredom hunger and I’m going to eat what I’m in the mood for rather than what I “should” eat. And I’m not going to count the calories or points for it.
I’m going to burn a minimum of 500 calories a day and exercise for one hour, but if I don’t go above that, I’m going to be OK with myself. That’s enough as long as I’m not eating too much. And if I have a heavier eating day, I’ll just cut back the next day.
The more I think about food, the more I want to eat. I didn’t used to be like that and I used to not need to lose weight. There’s a correlation there.
I’m still going to keep a food and exercise diary — what I did each day and generally what I ate. But that’s as far as it’s going to go.
Keep an eye on the weight “chart” to the right for the results.
I still want to reach goal. I still want to be healthy and exercise and do all the things I’ve been doing. I still want it all.
But I’m tired of trying. It’s not working.
I started out this week pretty good (except that I ate an entire pizza for dinner Saturday night). Despite the pizza, there was hope. I tracked it. I did well. I knew if I got in some good workouts, I’d be fine. Then Tuesday C wanted to go for Mexican and I didn’t have time to work out because I had to meet friends for trivia. Then Wednesday, C took me to lunch at an Indian place. And I didn’t have the energy to work out that evening and on top of that, I ate too much and I ended up not even bothering to track.
Then I woke up yesterday and the run-down feeling I’ve had all week reached a climax. I could barely get out of bed to e-mail work that I wouldn’t be in. I read and slept all day. Exercise wasn’t even on my mind.
Not only did I not have the energy, I didn’t even want to! I always want to.
And, again, I ate too much.
I actually did well until I decided to splurge on a little ice cream.
And then a little more.
So where am I with this? I’m stopping Weight Watchers for a while. I need something that takes less effort and less though. I’m going to try Slim Fast, at least for a week. I used to have a Slim Fast for breakfast every morning a few years ago and it kept me pretty full, so I think I should be OK for a week or two. Just long enough to lose a few pounds and reset.
I don’t recommend it as a diet plan. I don’t think it’s the healthiest or most reasonable way to go. But I need to do something right now and that’s the most obvious.